Incredible Distance
1. Limits
Talk about site fidelity...
Talk about natal philopatry...
Talk about synchronicity!
Talk about London meeting Eugene!
Other people's flight patterns lack the hallmarks of mine
Pictures of ten-year reunions with pictures
Of altitudinal migrations
With breathless emergency landing vacations
Talk about asthma!
Narrows for airways
Peak flow a puff from a pipe dream—
Fifty percent of an infidel's personal best
A Forest Park duck falls fifty feet leaving the nest!
From the cavity edge to the edge of the briar
A baptism of flier without proper plumage!
In the purgatory of a spacer
Passing from chamber through chamber
To chamber...
What is incendiary to me?
Incredible distance confined
In my body.
Talk about imagined geography...
Talk about plant intentionality.
Talk about sessility, precinctivity...
Talk about cosmopolitan pantropicality!
Jump! Stop tilting at windmills!
Wilting at failures to skirt the frame of the swing
set! Jump! Stop placing bets
On peregrination, on a fair roundabout
gain! Spin! Shrink! Skidoo! into a postcard,
into the gum on the
stamp! Glue! Paste! Tamp! Affix!
A Phoenix Garden wren in a sudden igloo sticks to sticks!
From a nettle-mound to the pear-petaled crisps on the bower
A universe swirls in that souvenir snowglobe!
Half-eight till the vesperal pealing
The architect shake-sings with skyscraper feeling
What is irradiative to me?
Incredible distance;
unforgettable limits.
Wouldn't you like to know where I want to go?
2. Sedentary City
Try
To wend your way
Through the thickest thickets
And avoid the ratchet call reviews of the
Gray Catbird critics.
Easily
The mimic mews,
"Be more original";
They heard it from
A bird more qualified to say it.
Freely
They propose a game of musical chairs;
They bend the rules
So they will win it when they play it.
Where there's a seat,
There'll be someone
Sitting pretty,
Calling your every shot
And shooting down
Your every call for help.
Your even feet
Won't ensure an even footing;
Your standing won't be understood
In the sedentary city.
Try
To look to your laurels
In a boxwood hedge
At public capacity.
Try to rest
Among the mock-mockingbird–occupied
Topiary thrones.
Eerily
The tin-can chorus vacates the premises,
Abruptly and without an echo—
Sturdy and upright
In the spotlight,
You emanate your candidacy
For upholstery.
Where there's a seat,
There'll be someone
Sitting pretty,
And where the seating's scarce
You'll get your shot at
Getting shot at.
Your beating heart
Won't save you from a heartfelt beating;
Your standing won't be understood
In the sedentary city.
3. Left Right Left
The inspirational
Isn't moving
Inspiration all died
I defy
Edifying texts
I defy
Hot air quotational flotationals—
Quote away.
Float away.
Who am I talking to,
Talking to?
Imaginary figments in the ICU
ICU
I see nothing left to view
Left to view
Left
(Right?)
Left to view—
Lungs bereft
I seek a sunken bubble
Free dive on empty
Down to an abyssal depth
And where the plain
Intersects with the trench
I teeter on the edge
A current blasts
From behind
I gasp
I cast a shadow
On a shadow
A Turkey Vulture buddy
From my littoral days
Phases in
All unflappable
To call the black swirling kettle
Back together for a
A whirlwind tour
Of a marginal sea
Hover over
One /ˈneɪvəl/ vessel
Or another
Body of
Human or of water
Blood exists
To be discovered.
I exist
To be—
I exist
To be—
I exist
To be!
I take a breath
I cast a shadow
At the moment of
I take a breath
I cast a shadow
At the moment of
I take a breath
I cast a shadow
At the moment of
I take a breath
I cast a shadow
At the moment of—
4. White Appetites
gray after gray
prey after prey
morning to morning
day after day
let's let
bygones be bygones
blackening the skies
in the bygone style
of soon-to-be-gone monarch butterflies—
climb up the butte
stare at the sun-drenched river
clench your lids
hurry
carry the sight
to the boardwalk
lift your chin up
open your eyes
see a shadow
watch as it lightens and dies.
see a shadow
watch as it lightens and dies.
see a shadow
watch as it lightens and dies.
how can I love someone I've
only seen in a painting?
how can I love a voice I've
only heard described?
how, on the other hand, can
you kill somebody who's right in front of
you seem to have no trouble at all doing it
you seem to have no trouble at all
straw after straw
back after back
mourning to mourning
caulking the cracks
let's let
bygones be tattooed
upon our eyes
let's let
the truths
be louder than the lies
I feel so ashamed to think
I used to say
it wasn't your land
and I didn't take it away
it wasn't your land
and I didn't take it away
it wasn't your land
and I didn't take it away
white appetites
killed the passenger pigeon
white fashion
killed the Carolina parakeet
white silence
kills people of color
white power
will kill the very current it ignited
my own white power
will kill a current too
if I'm not prepared to fight it
see a pipeline
run along the oil-drenched river
see us promise
changes that we don't deliver
see a sacred place
watch us colonize
the boardwalk
see a fallen cup
someone carried that cup
when it was full
it must have taken every ounce of strength
to pour the liquid
down their gullet
yet a cis hetero white man
emptying his gun
seems to have no trouble at all
carrying it for a future bullet
seems to have no trouble at all
5. The Sound Narrows
Trampoline sensations
lingering
I fall asleep
grinning
and awake
grinning
in awe
at what I
see saw
see saw
see saw
see saw...
It's unreal
it's unreal
it's unreal...
It's unreal
it's unreal
it's unreal...
It's unreal
it's unreal
it's un—
Cornucopia sofa
so far you are
treating me A-OK today—
Eleemosynary celery
boyar
born of crimson velvet clay
born on an inclement Friday
born in the month of March...
Tambourine tintinnabulations
annotating
birdsong, bee song,
thumping bunny hearts
clinging
in awe
to what they
see saw
see saw
see saw
see saw...
It's unreal
it's unreal
it's unreal...
It's unreal
it's unreal
it's unreal...
It's unreal
it's unreal
it's un
reeling in the Earth
cartwheel and coincide
sidewind and surrealize
Sun reeling in the Earth
Earth reeling in the Sun
(parenthetical asides aside)
Sun and Earth
having begun
accrete
accrue
accelerate—
collide...
Pierce my wrists with your nails,
pierce my temples with your thorns;
Revoke my resurrection license,
I can't bear to be reborn.
Place me on a bed of shells
(relics of pistachios)
within earshot of the sound,
somewhere over the Narrows…